Linda is healthy again, so less fazes me now, but for a while I was having trouble surviving, too, because having a sick and nearly dead girlfriend for a little while awakened me to what matters to me about living and made everything else seem toxic and intolerable. I'm still having trouble playing the game, but still want the rewards that are dangled in front of me as enticements to try to play the game better, but I end up just feeling frustrated and wanting to open a window or something. I'll keep posting (notice how hard I try not to use the word "notify") and see if anything gets any better. Not fucking likely, but we create our own luck in the end, I think.
